Grace, Mercy, and Love

While writing this non-fictional book of true Testimonies about my life, it was the hardest thing that I ever had to do; crying, while re-living and re-writing my past, and seeing my life in black and white; was self-crucifixion. The Holy Spirit made me write this book to expose myself; to use me as an example, to help someone out there, who feels like all hope is gone.  So, as I am ministering to you, I am also ministering to myself. Living my life is one thing, but writing this book made me realize how much of a sinner that I truly was; I was hard-headed, stubborn, disobedient, didn’t like to be told what to do; just one sin after another. Yes, the Lord chastised me; but He didn’t kill me. Although, my life was not perfect but rather pure hell, I’d ask myself, why does God love me so much?The Holy Spirit is using my life story as a Testimony to help save someone out there, who is ready to give up and throw in the towel, for them to see that they too can be an overcomer. Trust me, I’d been there; molested as a child, homeless, escaped death twice, suicidal, in an abusive marriage: mentally and physically. I hated myself and I question God; why? Some days, I cried all day and all night, regretting the day that I was born.   Then there were other times, that I thought that I had messed up so bad with God, that God had ran out of Mercies for me. Going through one storm after another, one trial after another, only to have failed them over and over and over. In spite of my many failures, God didn’t give up on me. He was right there pruning me, shaping me and molding me to be His masterpiece; so, He can get all of the Glory out of my life. He uses my life’s experiences as an open-book, to let someone out there know that He is right there with you. While you are going through your storms; which is your Ministry, He promise to never leave you, nor forsake you; if you don’t believe me, read my book for yourself. I am just a sinner saved by God’s Grace, His Mercy and His unconditional Love, is what kept me. He is the Alpha and Omega- the beginning, and the end.